blarg

I am burnt out. I need time to relax, but I don't have any. I got home from school on saturday May 8th and started work that Monday, the 10th. I had one day to start unpacking and try to get settled back at home. Since then, I work 40 hours a week, about 730-5 monday-friday. I don't mind the job, it's just receptionist/office slave stuff, but kinda boring. The people I work with are great though, which helps. Not bad pay either, helping to buy a car. But I am burnt out. My room is still a mess cause I am going through everything, like I mentioned before and I am def ready for it to be clean. And the lack of car is starting to get to me. I am ready to find one. I just need a week off to relax and get settled in to home.

I was so tired this morning, I really didn't want to get up. And my cat was being all cuddly--I know, yes Buckshot was being snuggly--which didn't help me get up at all. And I came to work, yay, and as I was trying to respond to an email, some button got pushed and it got erased, so, I am sorry Mike, but after that I was really not in the mood for rewriting everything over.

This weekend is a huge family reunin and I am hoping that eventhough there are going to be a lot of people there, I will be able to relax and hang out with my cousins and have fun.

Eh, enough complaining...

cleeeeaning....

So, I have decided that this is the summer for me to go though and clean out everything in my room. And I mean EVERYTHING. I have gotten though the bookshelves and that is good, but the floor of my room is still barely visible. I have been working on this for quite a while and I think I am ready to be done. I cleaned out my clothes; got rid of more than a trunk load of them to give away. And so far I have filled a trunk box with trash. I have no idea how I am going to get that thing out of my room and upstairs to the garbage. haha. I cleaned out most of my closet yesterday and that felt good. I have thrown away so many old school papers it isn't even funny. I found stuff from probably middle school in there and now it is gone.

Cleaning gives you such a feeling of satisfaction. I can honestly say, I can't wait until I can vacuum. Not anything I thought I would ever say, but it is true. I can't wait until I can scour every crack and corner in my room and clean it until it is sparkling. No more messy room....well, at least for the next week or so. ;) No really, I really want my room to be clean, really clean so I can see ALL of my rug! I have to say, I am pretty proud of myself for the amount of stuff I am throwing away and giving away. For being such a pack-rat, I am doing pretty well. :D I wish I had documented this cleaning from the beginning, but mabe I can start now. Take some pictures here and there to show what I have gotten rid of and what I am throwing away. I'll start that tonight after dance.

Just wait, when I am done, my room is going to be so clean and look so good, it is going to be unbelievable!!!

Dark and Full of Music, the Perfect Club

I went to a Jazz club last night with my mom. One of the students in her sewing class was singing there last night with her band and we went there to hear her. She was amazing! The band is called the Wil Key Band, you should check it out. (www.wil-key.com)
She is the main singer, with her husband on the keyboard, a bassist, guitarist, and drummer. The guitarist is the only white guy in the band and he is amazing! And oh-my-goodness can Kama sing! She has an amazing voice! She sang a few India Arie songs and they did a cover of a Stevie Wonder song. Then they sang a couple songs that she and her husband had wrote. It was brilliant. And the club was an awesome place. You walk in one the bar side and it is dark, sort of modernistic meets the 50's. Really neat. Then you walk through this doorway and go into the restaurant, one smallish room with tables and booths, also dark and a stage at the far wall. There weren't that many people there, which is too bad because they were really good, but most of the people who were there were friends of the band members.

I wish there were more of these little comfy clubs nearby. I would love a place to just be able to go and hang out, listen to music, just chill on the couch with friends, read, anything. But out number of little bookstores or clubs (not dance clubs) nearby my house. There used to be a really cute little used bookstore down the street from me. i really liked it until I realized that the owner was a pedophile. ew. He once asked my brother about me after I hadn't been in there for almost a YEAR! AH! eeeww... so , the name changed quickly to the "dirty-old-man-bookstore" eventhough the guy was only middleagedish, but the "dirty-middle-agedish-guy bookstore" doesn't have quite the same ring to it. But, thank God, it closed down sometime while I was at school. I am sad that the bookstore is gone, cause it was really cute, but I was not exactly eager to go in there. And to think I was going to try to work there. *shudder*

So, no luck on a car yet, I looked at one, but it had an oil leak and it was only front wheel drive. I am hoping for AWD cause of the oh-so-loverly snow in good 'ol VT. So the search continues. I need to find a smashing deal like my brother did, but I think that may take a little longer. *sigh* As long as I get one before mid-Augustish. Stupid money. psht.

Time to get back to work! yay!

Ah, Reality TV

So, I watched my first full episode of "The Bachelor" last week. It was horrible. 20 "perfect women" to compete for one "perfect man." Good grief. He took each of the three remaining girls each on an overnight date and if all went well, invited them to stay with him in the "fantasy suite." How romantic. So of course all three of the girls accept his invitation. hmmm...I wonder what they did behind their closed door? I can only wonder. He professes his love to two of the women, who profess their love back and it is all happy until he tells one of the girls he is falling in love with her, but also someone else. Real nice, that would make the date. But for some odd reason she still decided to stay in the room with him; how strange.

I saw an add for some other stupid "reality" love show--Love and Money--or something. One of the girls in the clip said she was on the show to find the "prefect man." Yea, great place to find the perfect guy...on a public TV show with 15 other women and ONE (1) guy. ONE. I hate to break it to you hun, but you don't have too many choices...so you had better hope that the ONE (singular) guy is the right one and if, by some miracle, he is, you had better be pretty damn convincing to win him over 15 other catty barbie-doll women. *sigh* These shows make me so angry, which makes me ask my self *why* do I watch them!?! Luckily I can say I have only seen one whole episode and thank God Mike called me 2 minutes into the next episode so I could leave. Phewf.

You know, they should do one of those shows, but have a regular guy, a geeky guy, some guy that wasn't the star football player and is "such a hunk." I guess the reason they haven't gotten one of those (in my opinion, better) guys is cause they are smart enough not to apply to something that lame. hehe go them. high five for you geeks and dorks out there. I salute you. That is probably why there aren't any different kinds of women on the shows either. No punks or goths, no just plain wierdos. I mean, can you see me or, say, Steppi on The Bachelor? hahahahahahahah!!!!!!!! It could be fun though; scaring them so badly. Hey, you could get the guy by scaring the rest of the women off the show. :D Still a lame show though.

yay.

I thought since I was not at work anymore I would write a little more about today. I left work at 1250 and picked up Em and we went over to visit LHS and met Kirsten over there. It was great. ah, those silly high schoolers...hehe, I am totally done with that. :D It was nice to see my teachers and friends who are graduating though. I could talk to my teachers more like a friend than when they were a clear authority figure.

So, it is nice to be home. I missed the flat and the dry, and of course, the SUN!!! I may actually have to use...*bum bum bum* sunscreen! I do miss certain people though, ;) you know who you are. But I did miss it here a lot. I am hoping to buy a car within the next month too, so I can drive it back to school. So far, not too muchluck, but hopefully I will find one soon; I dunno how much longer I can go without a car.

I am having a total mental block today, so I think I will stop before it gets any worse. Party on.

woot.

I feel so cool. I have my own Blog. go me. Knowing me, of course, there is a chance that I will forget about it and notpost that often, but we'll see how it goes.

I am sitting at work as we speak, I am working as a receptionist/regular office slave. Not a terribly exciting job, but the people are great, so that makes it better. And it pays well. Slowly working my way to afford a car. That is a completely different story. But since I am at work, I shoudl probably go and actually do some work. *sigh*